It's an embarrassing story. My friends may be disappointed with me over this incident. If the manager here sees me, he might expel me. But this is the only way for me. Buy me food, please. The country I live in is Korea. Please buy me food that can be delivered on the Internet. I tried to solve it by myself. But.. I've been through a lot of bad things lately. Everything was a mess. So it's so hard for me to hold out by myself. A few days ago I had found a job. But the work there was so hard that my body couldn't hold out. I'm looking for another job now. Help me hold out till then. I'll pa… Pročitajte više

새로운 시작을 앞두고 있는 지금 내 가슴속에는 설렘 대신 두려움이 자리잡는다. 실패와 좌절의 굴레에서 지칠 대로 지친 나에게는 이 두려움을 물리칠 힘이 더 이상 남아 있지 않다. 너무 힘들고 고통스러워. 매일 눈 뜨고 감는 시간이 지옥 같아. 여기서 그만두고 싶은 생각이 시시각각 내 숨을 조여 와. 나는 이번에도 질 거야. 지금까지 늘 그랬듯이. 아무 의미 없는 짓을 굳이 해야 할 이유가 뭘까? 이제 그만 주저앉아 일어나기 싫다. 나는 이 공포와 두려움을 물리칠 단 하나의 방법을 이미 안다.… Pročitajte više

It's been a long time since I left home. Sometimes I want to go back home. But.. I can't.. I can't stand tall in front of Father. It's not about pride. Because I haven't become an adult yet. Maybe I can't be an adult forever. Suffering from too many wounds, I was exhausted. I wanted to become an adult on my own and stand tall in front of Father. I wanted to prove it to our Father like that. That's why I left home. But I think I've already failed. Sorry.. I believe in you. You'll certainly succeed.… Pročitajte više

Don't get me wrong. I'm not an atheist. My God just has a different name from your Gods. His name is neither Yahweh nor Allah. His name is an Infinite Possibility. Hard to understand, huh? I know.. Don't try to understand. Only your head hurts. And I don't even want it. Just, don't call me an atheist. It's the worst insult to me.… Pročitajte više

It's a movie that's easy to misunderstand. No, maybe the misunderstanding of the film is the real fun the director intended. < Dogtooth, 2018 > <The Lobster, 2015 > His movies are always unkind. Already such a trend is the keynote of the director. Just one problem, the majority of moviegoers hate that tendency. That's why the film caused an ambiguous response from the audience. Against the backdrop of Greek mythology and the Bible, the director painted his own imagination. In the process, t… Pročitajte više

Social evolutionarily, collective intelligence determines the future of the community. Not only political, economic, academic, art and culture, but even a system of ethical consciousness... Collective intelligence is involved in all areas, which is directly linked to the form of ethnicity and state and the direction of development. And it is none other than education that determines the level of collective intelligence. Do you know Korea? General MacArthur used to refer to the Korean War a… Pročitajte više

If you do this to me and get caught, you'll really die. Besides, I'm not gonna kill you finely. I'm gonna tie you and your mother up and throw them in the dog's mouth. It's no joke. Don't try to test me. You'll really regret it.… Pročitajte više

As the typhoon approaches, the rainstorm become stronger. The sound of the rain hitting the ground and the sound of the wind pushing the wall are loud and noisy. I love this kind of day. My mind and heart without a silent day resonate with the rainstorm as if they were ensemble. It's so beautiful. You don't believe me, do you? But it's true. I hope this happens every day. I'm so excited!!… Pročitajte više

J : It is probably difficult life in Korea, because of conservative culture. If I may ask, do you live your daily life as male or female? my answer : But it's much better now. The remuneration is only a category. On the one hand, such deterrence is also a social device. On the positive side... The misunderstanding of individualism in the West is self-indulgence. No, individualism itself is self-indulgence. Individualism in the dictionary sense does not exist. The reason why I can't live as a woman because I'm born w… Pročitajte više

Oxygen 38.8kg Carbon 10.9kg hydrogen 6.0kg Nitrogen 1.9kg Calcium 1.2kg Phosphorus 0.6kg Potassium 0.2kg 60kg standard.. Where's the soul? Do you know what the source of arrogance is? It's a blind faith in fantasy. That's the main culprit that makes humans insignificant b**sts. Human beings cannot evolve.… Pročitajte više

Born with a man's body, I can't live as a woman. It's so resentful and unfair. I've lost too much light in vain. I won't live like that anymore. Never!!!!!! I don't care if people curse and spit at me. It's late, but I'll live my true self from now on. I'll burn all the last light I have! When the light goes out, I will disappear from the world without a trace. I have no regrets. It's what I wanted.… Pročitajte više

Not all men are equal. The greatest sin of mankind is not to realize. Humans have brains that can solve all the conflicts and confusion on the ground. We can have the wisdom to surpass a transitional God enough. Look at the Bible! Yahweh is just a boy. It's time for him to grow up, but... the chances are slim in my eyes. The first thing mankind needs to do to grow up is independence from parents. But like a baby who grabbed the mother's breast... Human beings are only trying to settle for faith. In addition, antiqua… Pročitajte više

Pigs can never evolve into humans even after billions of years. It's nature's providence.… Pročitajte više

The girl's soul was always lonely. But it's okay now. Because I'll be with her...… Pročitajte više

Whether it's physical or mental... The wound is taken to the grave. A mental wound in particular is not something to heal or overcome. It is to be held in the heart with eternal pain throughout the whole life. The girl's heart is covered with such wounds. There's no place to get hurt anymore. Nevertheless, the girl is still standing. "Don't be afraid! I don't blame anyone."… Pročitajte više

Have no excuse... I was the only one who had to protect you. But I have been incompetent and irresponsible so far. There's no turning back now. It's all my fault. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.. Mir.. I love you..… Pročitajte više

Why despise me? I didn't do anything wrong. I was considerate of them. I was kind to them. Is that my fault? Why bother me? Why are you pointing fingers at me? Why? Why? Am I that funny? I didn't do anything wrong. I didn't do anything wrong. I was kind and kind. So.. Why would you destroy me?! Why would you destroy me?! Why would you destroy me?! Why would you destroy me?! Why would you destroy me?! Why would you destroy me?! It hurts! It hurts! It hurts! It hurts! It hurts!!!! The wound won't heal. I'm alread… Pročitajte više

I never saw a wild thing sorry for itself. A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough without ever having felt sorry for itself. ...................................................Self Pity, D.H. Lawrence If he'd seen National Geographic... Never said that. Every source of life comes from self-love. Self-pity is nothing but a branch of self-love. Of course, when it deepens, it is treated as a disease. When self-pity reaches that point, ... It becomes a poison that kills itself. Like I'm showing you right n… Pročitajte više

이 사진은 지난 2020년 8월 20일에 찍은 사진이다. This picture was taken on August 20, 2020. There are many people who praise me for being pretty. But.. I've never taken female hormones so far. My breast is made of cotton and tissue. And.. My age is 42 years old in Korea. It's hard to look like that when I'm old. I'll tell you the truth. My face you saw is my face I see. Do you understand what I mean? All my photos and videos are mirror images. Ever since I was seven years old, I wanted to be a girl. Since then, whenever I looked… Pročitajte više

Solitude is the greatest pain. He who disagrees with this has never experienced true solitude. I know the pain too well. Because my life has been completely cut off from the outside world. From a very, very long time ago... Funny stories start now. I only said I knew the pain of solitude... In fact, I no longer feel the pain of solitude. Because I am used to the pain now. Essentially, all the pain... get used to it over time. Now.. What really makes me suffer the most... It's someone's love for me. It always betr… Pročitajte više